Growth can also feel like loss.

"Grief is love's souvenir.
It's our proof that we once loved. Truly loved. Grief is the receipt we wave in the air that says to the world
‘Look! Love was once mine.
I am capable of love. Here is my proof that I paid the price.’ "

"You are what you love."

“አቤት ሰው መሆን ያለው ፈተና”

Let it die with the dignity it deserves.

Make it your life’s mission to find beautiful souls; they’re a constant reminder of how vibrant this life is.

"It feels a lot like death, the concept of it is pretty similar honestly. Aside from knowing that they’re alive and well somewhere still being an asshole...”

“I don’t care”
(I already wrote two poems about it)
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I seriously cannot wait to live this beautiful life with no limitations, to achieve everythinggg I want and fucking relish in it! The hunger I have for life is growing everyday and I love it. To me, to my beautiful dreams, to absolute freedom, to everythinggg and then MORE, to a journey that’s worth remembering🥂

You really have to put yourself on a certain pedestal. Like yes, you're better than that, you're bigger than that, you can't associate yourself with that, you can't even entertain that.
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Tell your mind beautiful things about yourself.
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I’ve made it a habit to document my life, there are so many points in my day to day that make me feel as though my life is empty and not really worth experiencing but I know that’s not true. Not even a little. I document my life not to put it up on Instagram and Snapchat but to relive those moments again and again. My life is so full of love and laughter and endless happiness, my life is so full of moments worth living again and again. I find myself going through my gallery rewatching my moments often, they’re so full of life and fill me up with gratitude so intensely. Document the parts of your life in moments of laughter and intense emotion. It might seem weird pulling out your phone to take that picture or that video but the weirdness fades and the moment is forever captured. Make beautiful memories and capture them so you can live them again when you want to.🤍

እሄን ላጡትም አንተ አስብላቸው።

Holidays do make things harder.

This might be a little too raw but whatever, fuck it. If you know me personally I don’t mean to worry you, just expressing the deepest parts of what’s going on with me right now. I’ll be okay, I love y’all🫶🏽💋

I often battle with feeling alone, in reality I know it’s not true but my thoughts happen to be assholes. In some aspect I guess it’s also true... that I’m alone where I am. Being alone doesn’t bother me much anymore, I’ve found comfort in it but there are times like now where it would be real fucking nice to have someone worth keeping next to you. I’m also going through grief at the moment and most times it’s very overpowering. I don’t understand my emotions, I don’t really know how to navigate through this loss. All the books say you move from one stage to the next stage but I find myself at a different stage everyday so inconsistently. I don’t really see a support system around me, my support system is one I can’t hug or hold, one I can’t physically touch. I feel so inconsistent in the state I’m in, inconsistent in the amount of me I have everyday to put out into the world and live everyday. The thought of death by itself is not what I imagined it to be, it’s much harsher. I’ve never put much thought into how people around me hurting would be a cause of pain on it’s own. Most times I think that hurts even more, being the support for someone you can’t hug or hold. Its painful in its own fucked up way. I feel defeated in most aspects of my life. Most days, I don’t have it in me to get out of bed, other days I don’t have it in me to step out of my door and be an active participant in this world. And I’m so fucking angry, all the time. It’s exhausting. It’s too much, it’s all demanding too fucking much of what I don’t have. I’m so fucking tired, my heart and mind are so fucking exhausted. I’m tired of waking up everyday, I’m tired of sleeping, I’m tired of eating, I’m tired of being on my phone, I’m tired of consuming the outside world, I’m tired of going to school, I’m tired of the people around me, I’m just so fucking tired. I feel exhausted just trying to put these feelings into words, trying to explain this in an understandable way. ደከመኝ። ውስጤን ደከመኝ። በቃ አላውቅም እንደዚህ ይሰማኛል ብዬ አላሰብኩም ነበረ። ሰዉ ሆኖ ከሰዉ ጋር መኖር አቃተኝ። This isn’t to say I want to stop living, I’m just a little too tired to be an active part of the world right now. Just wanna hit pause for a bit and get a chance to be still indefinitely, process the world and these new variables around me at my own pace.